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Name: Em
Country: United States
State: Near a cornfield
Birthday: 2/17/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: Indeed..many a thing interest me.
Markers...and a blank canvas. Be it paper, cardboard....my hand.....
Music. Be it in a CD player....in my fingers...a melody or strain running through my head....
God. No maybe's here. He just....IS.
Expertise: I want it to be...loving people.
1st Corinthians 13 says that "These three remain, faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  mymonowrsconvers
Member Since:
6/11/2004
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| Thought I had died?
The greatest thing you'll ever learn, is just to love, and be loved in return.
But what if you just learn the loving part, and are never loved in return?
Doesn't that foil the whole plan?
And don't you hate how one little part of your life can rule you?
Sometimes its great.
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| I'm obsessive.
But the things that are the objects
Of my obsession?
Are the darn luckiest things in the world.
Amen to that.
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| Can being alone be any worse?
Everythings coming to a close soon.
Time's closing in.
Running out.
Nothing is going to happen.
I had an imaginary conversation
Tonight in my car.
It'd never work in real life.
It made me cry in the end.
But I was talking to God in the end.
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| It boggles my mind
The way it can play tricks on me.
How it can analyze something so simple
Over and over again
Till it is more than threadbare.
The way I can take something
And before I fall asleep at night
Put it in every context available.
The way the simple things set it off
Why can't I just take life as it is?
Why does everything....TV, books, movies....
Pictures....revolve around love, romance, relationships?
Everything portrayed is false.
If you pay attention to these things...
You think, you fall in love...you or the
Other person gets hurt eventually...
But in the end, you either get back together...
or meet someone better
And everything ends up perfect.
Perfect? In this world?
That's the most delusional thought I've ever heard.
But I can see the sun.
After the gray day.
I also can see a smile...in the back of my mind....and I of course...must analyze this.
Love me for who I am.....and love me soon.
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| I am reviving this I suppose.
Its partly Courtney's doing...
In a round about way.
Please don't pass this around
I just want to write in peace
I want to get some thoughts down
And out
A few of you read this
And I trust you
I don't want people coming and reading this
Leaving me sappy comments
Saying I love you
Or whatever
"I'll go to class for you."
Argh. Do people who say
Really sappy things ever annoy you?
I mean...maybe its just because
He told me he liked me
And I TOTALLY do not feel that way
About him.
I am a bad person.
But....I can deal with that.
What I can't deal with
Is certain feelings I have.
I can't deal with the fact
That I am still here waiting...
For the guy that I was waiting for
Last year...and the year before
At this time.
Dedication? Love? Loyalty?
Or obsession? Craziness?
I don't know when to give up.
But sometimes....I just feel like
God is still telling me that there might
Be hope....someday....
But I don't want to ruin it.
So I wait.
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